Writing for different points of view.

Writing for different points of view.

I feel so stuck in my life now, I'm caught in a trap that I can't get out of. Indeed, I feel stuck with school and all the pressure it brings. Whether it's for an oral, a simple little evaluation or a text commentary, I will always have this same ball in my stomach which is due to the stress that school makes me feel. Even though I have great teachers or friends by my side, I am always so scared, I feel that everything brings me back to school and school work. Indeed, even when I am having fun with my friends, I always have in mind a paper that I have to hand in for the next day or the oral the next day that is waiting for me. School is always in the corner of my mind and never really leaves me. Also, if I get a bad grade it will impact my mood and emotions a lot and I don't think it should affect my life so much that I get a lump in my stomach. Outside of school I don't feel free because I can't manage on my own, I still depend on my parents and it's not that I don't want them anymore, I just would like to be able to do some things without always asking them for help, money or advice. I would like not to have to ask for every single thing I want to do, I like their presence, but I would like to be more independent and therefore not feel forced to ask them for things all the time. All these little things impact my emotions because I feel constantly imprisoned and unable to fly on my own. But still I try to free myself again and again...

I am 18 years old!!! That's it, I don't depend on anyone but myself anymore. I don't have to ask my parents for help anymore, I can drive, I can work, I have all the freedom I need to fully develop myself. And I take advantage of it, I take my flight and leave for the United States, there I will be able to discover a new world. Because, yes, for me freedom means travels, I don't intend to stay in my little town in France. I want to enjoy, to discover, to meet new people, to learn from their cultures, their languages... I become, at my 18 years old, free of my decisions, free of my thoughts, I become able to vote and thus express my opinion on the world which surrounds me. I become 100% myself, of course I still listen to the advice of my relatives and of course I still owe so much to my parents because they are the ones who taught me everything but I will be free. I will have my own responsibilities, and at the same time it scares me, but at the same time I am excited to discover this new world that is opening up to me. By going to the United States I will be able to discover all this at my own pace without having to follow anyone. I'm going to start working so that I can depend on myself and stop relying on all the people who have already given me so much.

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